Actually mi

i here is to write about my love life.

For the one i love before i sorry for all my promises.

Anyhow, thank you very much.

But now, i am happy and sweet enough.

Being with Joseph is what i ever dream before….

Still remember i do told myself i will not find a Jit Sin guy as my lover.

i hate Jit Sin guy for not nice enough towards girl.

Thus, less Jit Sin guy know who am i and so they not “interest” toward me.

But, thing happen in UTM.

Jos is from Jit Sin and he consider active in Jit Sin as well.

We meet each others when the day we went to UTM for study.

He wearing a blue jacket and all the way he just sleep……….

even through we make noise but he just SLEEP……..(Coz he pening bus :p)

He is my roommate - ah 4- any ‘ta bao’ must under his mission.

So when he ring my roomate  only one word can describe * happy * coz our dinner or lunch is reach.

When we get closer? I think this must be the meteor night.

A nice meteor night we ever seen (still remember jos children act) …

I never ever dream that u the one who be with me…

i sick, u cheer me up…….

i sick again u angry because i no take good care of myself.

But when i sick u the one who most busy doing this doing that….

i know u worry me.

But i prefer to manja till u fed up…. (sorry)

but later on u learn from me to manja me back…….

both of us manja …..

Joseph, you are my medic.

With you, i no longer scare of doctor anymore.

With you, my life not fear of dead because i know you will be with me.

i here to thank you , Jos

i love you

Have you ever hunted a day coming to your life?

Yes i am.

the 10th of September. Instead of waiting i prefer hunt the day.

The day i can find out who am i ? how i treat people and how people treat me.

Let’s start when i was small, i care about my birthday. i got lots of idea for my birthday but that the day for …

A day where dad will held me a birthday party but the people attended all is dad customer. Where my friends gone? i dunno, dad say only old uncle can buy me a big teddy bear and expensive toys. From that day, dad told me -friends no longer forever just money help you to maintain it. ( that time i was just 7 years old) I know the important of money instead of the power of friendship.

I do jealous why people birthday party can choose what they like but i cant.

i love the crowd but i cant make myself into the crowd.

the main - i no idea how to make myself into as well.

So all i can do is learn, i pay much more hardship to learn to crop with people.

DO i really success?

this the day -like a day to wait for the result. A result to show do i treat people correctly , to help them or to maintain a good friend, good room mate.

how the result? i give myself - an E

I just cant be the good one. i am sorry to all people around me.

To my beloved friends:

thanks for the birthday wishes. its really mean lots to me. I happy u can spend few minutes to wish me happy bday. Nothing but meaningful to me. really. Sometimes, i money mindef

thanks you.

To my family:

Your call make me the most warmest touch. Both dad n mummy i love you. i pray for every birthday both of you sing me a birthday song. thanks papa and mama for bring me to this world.

To my dear Pen Chow:

A person who responsible for my birthday tired you up… As i told you , nothing is important as you spend minutes with me. How long we didnt talk to each others already? Every lunch and dinner, our topic all dump us out.. really miss your warm hug and kisses. Good luck in your presentation and all the best in your future. My hope- forever bday, you will be my side.

Out of the window, the rain drop by…

That’s really beautiful.

A song play by Leona Lewis- Hera I am

Soft and nice..

Comfort me lots…

——————————Here I am—————————————

This is a crazy world

These can be lonely days

It’s hard to know who’s on your side

Most of the time

Who can you really trust

Who do you really know

Is there anybody out there

Who can make you feel less alone

Some times you just can’t

make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run

If you need a shoulder to cry on

I’ll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain

When you need a healer for your pain

I will be there time and time again

When you need someone to love you

Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams

Just lay them all on me

I’ll be the one who understands

So take my hand

If there is emptiness

You know I’ll do my best

To fill you up with all the love

That I can show someone

I promise you you’ll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run

If you need a shoulder to cry on

I’ll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain

When you need a healer for your pain

I will be there time and time again

When you need someone to love you

Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who

They can pour their heart and soul into

Well if you need a place where you can run

If you need a shoulder to cry on

I’ll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain

When you need a healer for your pain

I will be there time and time again

When you need someone to love you

Here I am, Here I am

——————————————————————————

There still hope going on.

Everything gonna be all right tracy

Do you ever wonder question yourself..

"Have u ever spend a minutes or seconds with me before?
If you really do, how going on?
Will I the one you going to contract for coming date?
Will I the one who you going to select for next party?
I still the one you know?"

Somewhere when you meet me, will I the one value for you to say a “hi” for?
Sometimes when you miss me, will you give me a ring?
In between somewhere and sometimes will you cherish the moment with me

Do let me know how much you miss me
Because i do miss you twice much more.

Thank you.

It’s far or close?

i really lost already

still wonder why i back to here….

a belated birthday to my dear..

dear this is for u.

During this final, u help me lots.
i stress as usual and this time i learn lots from u dear.
i still cant believe why i can study till loss up my mind but just crying.
yes, i very not happy to continue my study.
i meet up the -Loser

i too stress till crying…
and you the one beside me.
still remember when crying i keep on say sorry
yet i know i sorry to myself.

besides, i angry myself as well.
just a final but i took so serious.
like a series, once u at the top of the world the next day u may up side down.
yes i scare to lose up

nothing important then an A?

and this time….
i learn to let go the A
choosing a suitable happy study style…
An A mean lots to me, but happy mean much more to me as well

thanks you dear

i happy now.

P’s: good luck my friends who having their final!

it’s been a time for me to think do i really need to delete my last blog?
till 2008 i think i do have a very clear answer - yes -
still remember last time i like to write blog.
but till the time i do regret even how many blog do i write
its still come to a word -late-
a "blog" or "diary"? i dont care but still i think its a nice way for me to have a close chat with those who care and love me even we did really far away or those who sayang me (curi-curi)
Really, thank you all for so love me.
I never name my blog name in this way before, this theme.. or…
everytime my blog like to come a word -cherish- or sound cherish.
but this time…"Actually mi"
i hope i do write a blog about me, family,Jos and so friends
play the theme - so far, so close -
till, i am the tracy behave like tracy as well.
i LOVE u -papa mami koko
i Love u - pen chow
i love u - my sisters (jit sin,toast and egg, ns,others)
i love u -my brothes (jit sin, high school, ns,others)
I love u -my friends
i love u - my utm friends
i love u and i do miss u all.
thanks you.
————-HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR——————

p/s:
So sorry if i cant make a gathering with you guys~ forever u all stay in my heart.